1976: Peggy Hillcoat is eight. She spends her summer camping with her father, playing her beloved record of The Railway Children and listening to her mother's grand piano, but her pretty life is about to change.
Her survivalist father, who has been stockpiling provisions for the end which is surely coming soon, takes her from London to a cabin in a remote European forest. There he tells Peggy the rest of the world has disappeared.
Her life is reduced to a piano which makes music but no sound, a forest where all that grows is a means of survival, and a tiny wooden hut that is Everything.
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Kids. They'll believe almost anything if the "truth" comes from someone they trust.
And why wouldn't they? The world is wide and full of wonders we expect our children to accept without question. In that sense, the thought that a big ol' bunny rabbit brings them chocolate eggs each Easter isn't much less credulous than the idea that a thing called gravity keeps them from flying into the sky.
But there's a big difference between a little white lie told with the best of intentions and the apocalyptic fiction Peggy Hillcoat's father passes off as a fact at the start of Claire Fuller's disarmingly dark, if indisputably beautiful debut.
A so-called survivalist who has till today remained rooted in relative reality—content to attend meetings with other Retreaters at the same time as stockpiling provisions to see himself, his wife Ute and their darling daughter through the imminent collapse of civilised society—Peggy's papa is pushed over the proverbial edge by a betrayal at the beginning of the book, so when Ute, a prestigious pianist, takes some time away from the family home to tour, her husband takes the opportunity to spirit their eight-year-old off on what he calls a holiday.
Poor, perceptive Peggy sees through this ruse, but what's a girl in the wilderness of the woods to do except forge on forward in her father's footsteps?
Together, then, they go to work, making the most out of a couple of square miles of nature—Our Endless Numbered Days' small but perfectly formed setting. Years pass in this fashion. They aren't easy years, either, but Peggy pushes through, counting herself lucky to be alive:
Whether or not Peggy will live long enough to leave the prison of her parent's making is the big question I expected Our Endless Numbered Days to ask and ultimately answer, but Fuller's debut is a different sort of survival story—in the first because we know from the get-go that Peggy does indeed escape her dad and die Hütte, as intercut with her not-entirely-reliable reflections on the eight years she spent in the wilderness with him are chapters that document a single particularly difficult day some months since her sensational escape.
In November 1985, the present day of Fuller's fiction, Peggy needs to negotiate a visit from an old friend, as well as begin to be a big sister to the younger brother whose very existence is to her a bit of a mystery, and finally find a way to be okay with a world in which her survival isn't at stake on a daily basis. With so damn much to do, and few pressing reasons to, it's unsurprising, I suppose, that she plumps for option paralysis:
In the scheme of things these are mere morbid curiosities—question and answers of seemingly little significance in lieu of the big one Fuller has already headed off—yet they represent more than enough intrigue to keep even needy readers keen, and they serve, secondarily, to describe the damage done to Peggy: damage done over almost a decade in small but sickening increments.
None of this would be so intensely affecting if it weren't for Peggy's incredible strength as a character. Deftly drawn and developed as the bitter winters wear on, she straddles a sliding scale of innocence and complicity, ignorance and ingenuity. The contrivance of the Great Divide aside, she responds to her situation smartly; meanwhile, much as we might despise him, Peggy's papa is a chillingly convincing villain; and although she doesn't have a huge amount to do other than disappear, Ute, too, is a living, breathing presence in Fuller's fiction, memorably represented in absentia by the silent wooden piano Peggy's father carves.
As disturbing as it is at times delightful, and as brutal as it is beautiful, Our Endless Numbered Days should do for Claire Fuller what Room did for Emma Donoghue. It's a darkly fantastic first novel I recommend you read immediately.
Kids. They'll believe almost anything if the "truth" comes from someone they trust.
And why wouldn't they? The world is wide and full of wonders we expect our children to accept without question. In that sense, the thought that a big ol' bunny rabbit brings them chocolate eggs each Easter isn't much less credulous than the idea that a thing called gravity keeps them from flying into the sky.
But there's a big difference between a little white lie told with the best of intentions and the apocalyptic fiction Peggy Hillcoat's father passes off as a fact at the start of Claire Fuller's disarmingly dark, if indisputably beautiful debut.
A so-called survivalist who has till today remained rooted in relative reality—content to attend meetings with other Retreaters at the same time as stockpiling provisions to see himself, his wife Ute and their darling daughter through the imminent collapse of civilised society—Peggy's papa is pushed over the proverbial edge by a betrayal at the beginning of the book, so when Ute, a prestigious pianist, takes some time away from the family home to tour, her husband takes the opportunity to spirit their eight-year-old off on what he calls a holiday.
Poor, perceptive Peggy sees through this ruse, but what's a girl in the wilderness of the woods to do except forge on forward in her father's footsteps?
The holiday my father had promised wasn't a holiday. There were no beaches or sandcastles, no ice creams, no donkey rides; my father said we would rest when we got to die Hütte. The bushes at the sides of the path we walked along were nearly grown together, as if to say, this path is not for humans. My father was having none of it. (p.49)Their destination, die Hütte, is a ramshackle cabin in the forests of rural France where Peggy's papa plans to put down roots. To that end, he tells her that the world beyond the hills on the horizon is gone, along with all the folks unfortunate enough to be on the other side of the Great Divide, including Ute—and innocent as she is, Peggy assumes his tall tale is true.
Together, then, they go to work, making the most out of a couple of square miles of nature—Our Endless Numbered Days' small but perfectly formed setting. Years pass in this fashion. They aren't easy years, either, but Peggy pushes through, counting herself lucky to be alive:
My father and I settled into a routine: a pattern of rising at daybreak; an hour or two of work—chopping wood, collecting kindling; breakfast; an hour of piano; my father's trek to the river and back up for fresh water; gathering food and eating it if we were successful; an hour or two of free time; more work and food and piano; and when the sun set we'd get ready for bed. The rhythm of our days cocooned me, reassured and comforted me. I slipped into it without thought, so that the life we lived—in an isolated cabin on a crust of land, with the rest of the world simply wiped away, like a damp cloth passed across a chalked blackboard—became my unquestioned normality. (pp.162-163)Eventually, however—inevitably, even—the day-to-day of life in die Hütte takes a turn when Peggy's papa, whose mood swings have long been a problem, starts confusing his developing daughter for his supposedly departed partner. Peggy's only refuge is Reuben, a wild man of the woods she grows close to without her frustrated father knowing.
Whether or not Peggy will live long enough to leave the prison of her parent's making is the big question I expected Our Endless Numbered Days to ask and ultimately answer, but Fuller's debut is a different sort of survival story—in the first because we know from the get-go that Peggy does indeed escape her dad and die Hütte, as intercut with her not-entirely-reliable reflections on the eight years she spent in the wilderness with him are chapters that document a single particularly difficult day some months since her sensational escape.
In November 1985, the present day of Fuller's fiction, Peggy needs to negotiate a visit from an old friend, as well as begin to be a big sister to the younger brother whose very existence is to her a bit of a mystery, and finally find a way to be okay with a world in which her survival isn't at stake on a daily basis. With so damn much to do, and few pressing reasons to, it's unsurprising, I suppose, that she plumps for option paralysis:
There were so many possibilities for activity, but all were optional and all seemed pointless when our lives didn't depend on any of them. I could watch television, try to read a book, write down my thoughts and draw pictures of what I remembered, as Dr Bernadette urged me to do, or I could listen once more to The Railway Children; I had checked and it was still on the sideboard. Ute had given up trying to encourage me out of my lethargy and was simply happy that I was downstairs, where she could keep an eye on me. She didn't understand that because there was so much choice, I chose to do nothing. I preferred to lie still, with my mind empty. (p.83)She might be lucky to be alive, but die Hütte has undoubtedly damaged our protagonist; injured her inside and out in an array of ways Fuller draws our attention to deliberately rather than dramatically, to tremendous effect. In one section we find out, for instance, that present-day Peggy is missing part of her ear; how she came to lose it is explained in the following flashback chapter.
In the scheme of things these are mere morbid curiosities—question and answers of seemingly little significance in lieu of the big one Fuller has already headed off—yet they represent more than enough intrigue to keep even needy readers keen, and they serve, secondarily, to describe the damage done to Peggy: damage done over almost a decade in small but sickening increments.
None of this would be so intensely affecting if it weren't for Peggy's incredible strength as a character. Deftly drawn and developed as the bitter winters wear on, she straddles a sliding scale of innocence and complicity, ignorance and ingenuity. The contrivance of the Great Divide aside, she responds to her situation smartly; meanwhile, much as we might despise him, Peggy's papa is a chillingly convincing villain; and although she doesn't have a huge amount to do other than disappear, Ute, too, is a living, breathing presence in Fuller's fiction, memorably represented in absentia by the silent wooden piano Peggy's father carves.
As disturbing as it is at times delightful, and as brutal as it is beautiful, Our Endless Numbered Days should do for Claire Fuller what Room did for Emma Donoghue. It's a darkly fantastic first novel I recommend you read immediately.
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Our Endless Numbered Days
by Claire Fuller
UK Publication: February 2015, Fig Tree
US Publication: March 2015, Tin House
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